Why am I here?

What is your purpose? Do you know what your purpose is? I think we all get to a point in life and ask, why am I here? I know I have. I wondered for years…what am I good at, do I have any talents, what am I suppose to do in this world. I so badly wanted someone to just give me all the answers. So what do I do. I go to my friends and family and just ask. Of course they don’t have the answers I am looking for. But what exactly am I looking for. I don’t know, I just want someone to tell me what to do. How can I expect answers to questions, I’m so uncertain about. Why do I go to people, when I know the only one that can answer such a strong question about life is God. For years, I prayed about my purpose. Most days, I received silence. Most days, I wondered if I was listening, did I miss his message, God…are you there, did you hear me, how do I know when I have the answer. I realized I wasn’t even sure how to hear God. I changed my prayers to…God help me to know how to hear you. That prayer got answered quickly. Now, I know God talks to me through people, songs and movies. And my answer comes in threes. Meaning…I get the same message from God three times. Once I knew how to hear God, my life starting making more sense.

My purpose is writing. I have known this for a long time. Possibly my whole life. It’s easy now to look back and see how God was hinting to me everyday what my purpose was. I just needed to know how to listen first. And listening has always been a struggle for me. Just ask my daddy. Ha! I have always enjoyed putting my thoughts down on paper. I journaled a lot as a child. I wrote some not so nice letters to others (that never got mailed on purpose) because putting my words on paper helped me to process hurt or pain. Once I knew I wanted to write I still put it aside. I didn’t know how to “write.” I didn’t know what to write about. I still wasn’t sure if that is exactly what I was supposed to do. I knew writing was in my heart and I knew God put that there. That was sign number one. Sign number two came from a movie…Sister Act 2. This movie was released in 1993. A year after my mother passed away. Watch below.

It was this scene that put my brain to work. What did I think about everyday? Was it writing? And soon I found myself waking up thinking about writing. But I was only eleven, I didn’t have a clue what to write about. Again, I dropped it and pushed it to aside for many years. My third sign came about 5 years ago, when I was asked by a friend, what would I do if I could do anything. I simply said…I’d write a book. They were surprised, and had no idea that I had always wanted write. It was then, that I really started to pray about writing.

And two years ago I woke up one day….and I knew. I wanted to write about being raised by my daddy. I wasn’t really sure what specifically to write about and my first process started with an outline. I did a lot of research on how to write. An outline was the best way to get started. I had lots of topics but never really sat down to actually write. I was just stuck and a book didn’t feel write. A year later, I finally made the commitment to start blogging. I did more research, gave myself a deadline and here I am.

It only took 36 years to follow God and find my purpose. I am still not a great writer and I still have a lot to learn. And let me tell you…writing is hard. It may be one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I have even been know to skip a week or two. That brings me to the point of this message. Distractions. I had a lot of distractions in my life to hold me back from writing. I had a few distractions the past few weeks that have kept me from posting. My brain has been fogged with dilemmas, and hard choices. With the help of a few friends, God and lots of prayer…struggling and not knowing what to write about last week. I have decided to write about distractions. Distractions are a reality of life, no matter what the distractions is. Sometimes it’s Satan trying to get between you and your purpose but other times it’s God testing you to make sure your priorities are in the right place. For the next few weeks, we will talk about the different distractions life brings. I may even let you in on what’s kept me from writing lately!

What is your purpose? What do you think about everyday?